February was very busy for work and volunteer events. Going into the month I felt positive and confident. I was open to the potential from using the Healing Olive. I hadn’t used it before, and I didn’t know what to expect. I wrote a few comments and received replies from Shlomo. I am to understand that personal miracles will occur through natural or normal life experiences. I have always believed that miracles some how manifest the way they do in fairy tales. Call me a dreamer. Regardless, I had great hope and expectations for the month of February.
The later half of the month was awful. Keeping my strength and courage on what was currently important proved difficult. In the late evening of Saturday the 11th, my wife had struck a racoon on her way to work, at highway speed. She was safe and not injured, but the car was towed and it turned out to be a write off. We were now in the market to shop for another vehicle, something we weren’t financially planning for. Sharing a vehicle for the following three weeks and coordinating our work schedules definitely tested our love and patience. On Sunday the 19th, our fury canine companion Baxter, developed a clot near his aorta that limited blood flow to his organs and lower extremities. His kidneys were already so damaged that the doctor said they were irreparable. Baxter was in the hospital for 10 hours going through tests and diagnosing procedures. Every phone call I received, was worse news than the previous. We were becoming more and more emotionally unstable. Adding to our already financial burden of the car, the animal hospital bill had quickly escalated and we still didn’t know the exact problem. During the last phone call from the doctor, we learned that Baxter’s value of life would be virtually non-existent. The damage to his kidneys had already been done. We chose euthanasia late that night. One of the worst experiences of my life.
The following week was difficult and both Shelley and I tried getting into our regular routines as quickly as possible. But the quietness and loneliness in our condo was hard to manage. The sudden and immediate cause of Baxter’s departure was so confusing and provided no closure. I’ve constantly thought about the “what if’s?” knowing full well that it wouldn’t help change anything or the outcome. On March 1st Shelley and I found our second vehicle, and it was well worth the wait! We are both very happy and excited with it. The price and quality and requirements we looked for all balance out. This could be the first step in the right “miraculous” direction. Call me a skeptic, and maybe I am the kind of person that frequently plays devils advocate but I have yet to see some positive effects from taking the Healing Olive. However it was an emotionally rough month. I won’t give up though, I continue to use the Healing Olive and remain open to what I need to personally improve on.